I just wanted to thank each one of you for those comments. Most of all it helped me to realize that I am not alone in this. Looks like I will be spending time on this forum while I am sorting things out. I am seeing psychologist and it was helpful when I opened up to her. Though i don’t know where I am heading, one thing I know is that God is with me and he loves me. Thank you again, I read each one of your comments and will reread them again while I am searching for that answer and finding myself again.