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Thanks everyone! I agree with what Ray says about their motives most likely being pure and sincere. I just had that small nagging suspicion. I think with my EQP that with everything he’s gone through, he really gets things. Plus he’s in grad school for psychology with the intent of becoming a psychologist. That’s always a bonus

I do need to find out how much I’m willing to serve though and draw boundaries. I’ve seen too many people stretched to the max and beyond and I don’t want to become that way not just because it doesn’t lead to a spiritually fulfilling life, but because I know what it’ll do to me emotionally.

I wonder if I’ll always have a little part of me that’s suspicious, but I don’t think that’s necessarily a bad thing. If I didn’t feel that, then I’d go back to doing what I’ve done in the past which obviously didn’t work for me. But I have to keep it in check otherwise I won’t take advantage of the opportunities to grow. I’ve been studying service and charity since this little meeting and trying to set some goals for myself. One was that I wanted to start hometeaching again, as crazy as that may sound. I want someone to focus on outside of myself. And I’m not talking the once a month teaching a quick lesson thing. Heck, I’m honestly totally fine with not giving a spiritual thought. I just want to help someone because I know that in turn the interaction will help me. Call me cheesy but I want someone who I can be surprise blessing to when they’re struggling.

I asked a friend of mine how the church helped her to become more Christlike and/or develop more Christlike attributes and her answer was service. I’ve been thinking about that a lot and while I like her answer, I feel it’s limited. I think there are above average opportunities within the church to serve, but a lot of it is focused on serving other members. What about the mass majority of humanity who isn’t Mormon? So I’ve decided to sign up to volunteer at a food kitchen. It’s not much, but it’s a start. The way I see it, we’re all human beings and we’re all in the same boat and on the same team. Except members of Congress, but that’s an entirely different topic 🙄

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