Thanks for all your replies. It is comforting just to talk some things out. We both have a great counselor that we see as needed (BTW not affiliated with the church). For some reason this week has been hard for me. I am starting to “process” things and face my fears and then try to discuss these things with my husband. As you may imagine some of my fears are not very pleasant and it really sucks to talk it through and causes my husband pain, hurt and anger regarding some of my thoughts, feelings and fears. But I am convinced it is part of my process and I have to go through it to get to a better place. I feel a little better emotionally now though. I hope it stays. I guess at first I was worried that my relationship could be a lie to my husband. I just started doubting everything. BUT I know that is not the case and my husband has assured me that it is not the case. I hope things will stay good. We are both still communicating and that is good. I guess marriage does require faith, hope, love, patience and endurance. I hope we both can make it through this time now for a better day.
