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I thought I would write a slight update.

I write this update while watching Dragonheart. As cheesy as some parts of this movie is I think I see myself in black night. A man who felt betrayed left his post for a time and then found a new way to get back to it.

Getting back into shape

I’ve been learning about food grouping. What I found most interesting is that proteins and Starchy foods are best not eaten together. Growing up in the American Moron culture I think I’ve almost always eaten meat with starchy foods.

There are charts that I’ve found on the internet of what foods are okay to go together and what foods should be eaten alone.

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I am so very close to where I need to be.

OTHER THOUGHTS

I was reading through my scriptures the other night and came across THE SCRIPTURE

The second Book of Nephi. Chapter 27 Verse 23

23 For behold, I am God; and I am a God of miracles; and I will show unto the world that I am the same yesterday, today, and forever; and I work not among the children of men save it be according to their faith.

This was THE SCRIPTURE for me about 10 years ago. I felt what I thought to be the spirit telling me that what I was reading was absolute truth.

It was the strong basis for my faith and perhaps the fall of my faith. If God is indeed the same yesterday,today and forever then why has so much changed? I’ve asked myself that question the more I learned about church history as well as the more I read between the old testament, new testament and other religious texts.

You know with all that I’ve been through I feel that I’m lucky. I am on good friendly terms with my bishop and he is aiding me with the information and materials I need to succeed and move forward to the next chapters of my life. I have plans to remain within the church but just on my own terms. Maybe one day I will feel the comfortable secure warmth of Fowler stage 5. Maybe in time I will feel ready and okay to go through the temple. Right now I feel that a fresh start in another land trying new things is what I need to reinvent myself and I feel like the Military will aid me in doing that.

I choose to join for the sake of serving my country and for the sake of building myself up, It is time to take the raw iron and turn it into steel and shape that steel into an instrument that will build success.

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Well I’ve been tracking carbs and calories with use of http://www.myfitnesspal.com” class=”bbcode_url”>http://www.myfitnesspal.com anyone is welcome to join up and use for free. My username is Rusty366 feel free to add me if you do sign up.

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I thought I would look at my treasure map and see where I have been and where I may be going.

Things are much better between my father and me. Things got better after I had some bible oaths done with him. I placed the giant family bible on the table and on top of that another large bible and on top of that my father’s personal scriptures and stacked on top of that was a small bible that once belonged to his father and my grandfather. He swore upon all these books that he would stop belittling, stop purposefully trying pick fights with me or throw punches at me. He promised to allow me to continue with my personal goals without his negative influences.

I had a stack of my own books and I swore upon them that if my father did not keep his promises that I would strike him down with the wrath of GOD and make him feel the pains of hell on earth!

I’m not sure exactly what that means but my Father has been nice to me ever since.

I stuck around for Christmas and my Birthday. I bought myself a mini stepper and have been stomping on that. I have also been going out jogging. I called the Navy office and told them to keep my file fresh and that I would be down there once I’m confident that I will measure up.

My Bishop has always been very supportive of me joining the Navy. He told me that if the only thing stopping me from joining is my waste line then he would be more than willing to help out. I will now be meeting up with him on a weekly basis and compare notes on my diet and exercise and try to figure out what works together.

I think part of the issues with my weight-loss before was the great amount of stress I had felt. now that I am more relaxed and with the aid of my bishop and others will aid me in getting down to where I need to be

I’ve been fighting a cold since the weekend. I hope to be over it soon. Illness always seems to throw things off a little bit. I think before the week is over I will be over my nasty little cold.

my goal is the NAVY. they’ve already done some background checks on me. All that remains is getting down to where I need to be, continue studying up so I can maintain the good ASVAB scores and then get my feet wet with the NAVY. I will keep you all updated on the events of the upcoming weeks.

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PORN 😮

porn! :shh:

Yeah that seems to be all everyone ever talked about growing up as a youth.

I’ve met two different porn stars in person when I worked at the mall.

One I knew and recognized from my late teenage years when I would “borrow” a DVD. This actress seemed almost ashamed to meet me. She was grateful that I didn’t curse her name, call her a horror or called her to repent. Apparently I gave off a religious priest type of vibe.

She sort of vented to me that she was for the most part done with the industry. She may decide to do some modeling on the side from time to time but her days of staring in adult videos was over. She had children and wanted nothing more than to somehow blend in so that she wouldn’t be approached. Even though she was rather wealthy she would rather her children never learn how she got all the money and wished that they could grow up relatively normal.

I met another adult “actress” around the same time but I did not know who she was. This one asked me specifically if I was a priest. I think she was surprised that I did not make reference to any of her work. I told her that I had priesthood in my religion and that I am called an Elder. She seemed to be completely unfamiliar with what a Mormon is. I did tell her that I sort of stopped believing in my religion and wasn’t sure if I wanted to scrap it or not. I told her that I was cool with sort of reaching out of my religious morals and testing or trying out a slightly less sheltered lifestyle. She for whatever reason wanted so badly to shake my hand and wished me luck with my newly found desire of a different lifestyle that was no longer so sheltered. Speaking with this young woman I found out that we were very close in age, she grew up in the same State as me and lived in the same County but a different city. She has modeled, stared in soft core and regular porn. She has never gone super hardcore or crazy before though. I think really she just enjoys expressing her sexuality through film. She does not have any kids though. She does not have the burden of trying to raise children without certain people recognizing her. Perhaps if she did ever have children she seemed to have a very in your face sassy attitude that would cause her not to care if her kids knew where all the money came from.

I understand that porn can potentially be habit forming and for some can cause the desire to explorer sexuality with affairs, one night stands and forming partners with no strings attached. With that in mind I don’t feel like this is the case for everyone. I feel that pornography can just be an expression of human sexuality. In the current day there are guys and girls in the adult film industries of all different body types. There may be the fantasy girl and the fantasy guy but then it was realized that people like seeing people who look like themselves as well.

Current church policies forbid such thoughts.

I think the main reason that I wanted to post was to show that the adult film stars are relatively normal people. It was their choice to participate and that was the source of income. Each person involved is different and may react differently over time. I may have gone on a bit of a tangent but oh well that happens sometimes.

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Mike from Milton!! :clap:

I’ve enjoyed reading some of your insights and the advice you gave to me in some of the threads that I started.

It’s good to see that you found away to embrace the LDS religion.

wayfarer wrote:

is it time to lose hope for a happy Middle Way?

Well I really don’t know.

Personally I had my major faith issue in my mid 20’s so I feel like I’m among the younger crowd here. I’m not married and I don’t have kids.

My current bishop in the singles ward is aware of my faith struggles and is aware of my justified jack Mormon status.

I sometimes go out with friends to bars and sometimes I drink if I am not driving. If I drive I never drink.

I see the girls in the bar and think that they are great. I see the girls at church and I think they are great. I know the girls who I see at the bar wouldn’t go to church with me and the girls who I see at church will most likely not go to the bar.

I kind of feel like eventually I will have to make a choice as to which type of girl I would want to be with, which will also be the deciding factor of the lifestyle I will live.

That is is just my situation.

It is good to see that it is possible to choose one. Mike From Milton has chosen to stay LDS completely and has stretched himself beyond the need of this site. I wish you luck and thanks again. GREEN[/color] “>APPLES[/color]

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That is rather funny.

Near the end of the video there is a link you can click on that takes you to another video of the actual facebook letter. I went ahead and pressed pause so I wouldn’t have to worry about time for reading the letter. It was a joking letter to the company and it’s fun that the company made an advertisement as a response.

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A Very funny story/joke meoclew

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I almost voted no on this. If there was a third option that said Maybe I would have chosen that one.With Maybe the there is some faith so I suppose even with Maybe the answer is YES.

I’ve just been thinking a lot about the Holy Ghost. How much of this was actually the holy ghost and how much was just my personal emotions?

What about that girlfriend that as soon as I laid eyes on her I felt so strongly that she would be my wife but things didn’t work out at all?

What about that beloved uncle who received a blessing and it was mentioned that he would get a full recovery from his illness but in the end he just died?

What about the times that I got up to give a talk or spoke on F&T Meeting and everyone said that they could feel the spirit SO STRONGLY and I felt nothing?

What about the time that I felt so strongly that the Book of Mormon was true while reading 2nd Nephi Chapter 27 and now I feel nothing when I read that same passage???

I no longer stop, look, listen and feel for signs of the spirit. I will sometimes pray for guidance but I see things a little differently than I did before.

In the past I saw the spirit as a guide sort of like my own personal leahona.

Now I see myself as the captain of my own ship. I currently have no first mate. If the Holy ghost wants to tag along as some sort of an adviser by all means I’ll let him. I call the shots though and I’m not waiting for some strong emotional feeling to cloud my decision.

CAPTAIN SOLO wrote:

Han Solo: Kid, I’ve flown from one side of this galaxy to the other. I’ve seen a lot of strange stuff, but I’ve never seen anything to make me believe there’s one all-powerful force controlling everything. There’s no mystical energy field that controls my destiny.

I suppose I believe in the Holy Ghost but I just feel that many of the experiences that I thought was the Holy Ghost actually was not the Holy Ghost.

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His Step Mother was a Mormon. Tom Hanks attended multiple churches while growing up including the LDS church. Tom Hanks later apologized for the Un American comment he made about the Mormons.

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In the Young Men’s program with both ideas of soul mate and the list.

Realistically in either case anyone can make a self fulfilled prophecy to make their boyfriend/girlfriend be THEONE!

The list can be altered. Even if the list isn’t altered S/HE could easily say good enough for certain ideal traits and place a check in the box.

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I only just recently saw the Saturday’s Warrior DVD. It was at the public library ironically. Just think of the reactions normal people would have it they had randomly picked that DVD up 😯 or :crazy: or 😆 or :sick:

I have met plenty of people who actually do believe in the ideas of Saturday’s Warrior. Everything is destiny and we made promises to certain people in the pre mortal life. Our families were put together and chosen before we were even born.

I agree that all this is false doctrine. Pre planned families, promises, fate and destiny are all in direct conflict with agency.

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rebeccad wrote:

So my husband who is an amazing person and a TBM is in his mid-40’s and an Elder. Most of the Elder’s quorum are newlyweds in their 20’s. He says that he always dreaded being one of those “old guys” in the Elders quorum and now realized that he is.

I hate it for him, there is this low level embarrassment that the hasn’t been given a calling “high enough” to be a high priest yet. There are many people younger than him in the High Priests group and most of the men his age in the ward are. It just seems so unfair to have this very obvious divide.

Why can’t the church just make a policy of ordaining someone to be a high priest once they reach a certain age? They do it for all the other common priesthood offices.

Realistically he should feel good about being one of the younger guys.

Most of the High Priests I remember growing up had grand children and some even had great grand children. They were all the old grandpa’s of the ward.

My Dad received multiple invitations to join up with the High Priests Group once he was in his 40’s. He had yet to be a Grandpa at that point. His hairline only just started to recede and he didn’t have too much grey at that point. My Dad would always turn down the offer.

I recall on one occasion where they were for sure going to make him a high priest. I had just become a teacher (Priesthood rank after deacon but before priest) he gladly requested to remain an Elder so he could be my home teaching companion. Had I not just been made a teacher without a H.T. companion my dad would have been made a High Priest.

High Priest = OLD

Elder = Younger guy.

He shouldn’t have to worry about turning in his younger guy card in just yet. Maybe wait until he is 50.

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Featherina wrote:

Anybody raised in a large family & who had all of the bulk &/or generic stuff, might appreciate this…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zQ6rPBmcED4&NR=1&feature=endscreen

This was very funny.

We had our share of name brand cereals but we also did get the huge “7 year” bags of the off brands too.

SAMBEE wrote:

I was once in a night class with three women called April, May and June respectively!

How very fun indeed.

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SilentDawning wrote:

In areas of the world where temple weddings are not recognized by law, there is no such waiting period.

There is no such thing as a multiple one-year penalties. Each marriage is subject to the one-year waiting period though.

I was just wondering if you meant the 1 year after baptism for an adult to even begin to qualify for a Temple Interview. In situations when a newly baptized guy or gal want’s to get married I suppose a civil marriage would be ideal for them. I also wondered if the church had a one year waiting period for marriage after a divorce or something of that nature. That is what I was mostly curious about I suppose.

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Cadence wrote:

I personally think everyone should get married civilly first and then go to the temple. If the church is petty enough to make you wait a year then OK wait a year. It really is no big deal. If you are going to the temple because of some perceived peer pressure then you are going for the wrong reason anyway. I sent three children through the temple to get married while I was still TBM. For my family it was no big deal because almost everyone who wanted to attend could, except for younger siblings. But if I did it today I would tell them there is no problem with getting married civilly first. No problem at all. In fact I would recommend it for a couple of reasons. First the wedding day is very exciting and stressful at the same time, do not add the temple experience on top of it. Second I actually think the temple ceremony would have more meaning if you went through after a year and had the day set aside just for that. Then it truly would be a spiritual session and not just a step on the way to the honeymoon.

I am afraid I believe the church uses the temple very much as a control mechanism to keep the saints faithful. The pressure to go to the temple and keep a recommend your whole life is what keeps everyone obeying the rules. Which is OK if you choose to be a participating member, but it still punishes good family members who can not attend.

I agree more members need to start rebelling and just go the civil route first.

In my singles ward getting married in the temple did have a lot of pressure to it when a certain previous Bishop was in charge. He would often speak about the importance of temple marriages. He would tell stories about comparing notes with other Bishop’s on the number of temple marriages VS. Civil marriages and he would always smile and report 0 for Civil and # of Temple marriages. My current Bishop however will gladly count the civil marriages as the overall number of marriages. The large number is just evidence that if you put a bunch of singles in the same place they hook up and get hitched. I had always thought that the one year deal in the States was for legal purposes. After doing some searching on Google it appears that I thought wrong. You could get married in Washington State and then a few months later get married to that same person some place else. I don’t know I’m still single. I haven’t met HER yet so I’m not worried about the situation too much.

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