[Heber13]

Hi ProfessioinalMom,

I too am new at this forum, and am glad I found it since I am seeking answers in my own life and hope to share with others who may be doing the same.

My thought as I read your background was that I admire and respect you. I come from a different background, my ancestors were pioneers and I was raised by strong loving parents who taught me well. I have lived my whole life in the church and never really had to try to assimilate or become part of another culture, this is all I know. Yet here at my stage in life, I have my own personal struggles and questions regarding God and His church.

As a life long member, I have always had deep respect for those who convert and make difficult changes. I try to learn from them and realize how beautiful the gospel is that draws us all together, despite our differences. I have also been part of many leadership callings, and knew from the day I was called that I was so underqualified to try to help or lead others, but have grown through making mistakes and relying on God to carry me through despite my weaknesses. The church really is imperfect people putting a lot of stress and pressure on being as perfect as possible as quickly as possible, and many times are wrapped up in pine wood derbies or home teaching goals that distract many from the true purpose of religion.

My point is that you should not feel you NEED to change who you are as a person to “fit in” because those that you may try to emulate (TBMs or the perceived rock solid saints) need to be trying to change to be better at the same time. We should be trying to change our hearts and use Christ as our standard, and Him only. In fact, I strongly believe the other members of the ward you go to need to benefit from your perspective, your testimony, and your faith to continue to strive to live the gospel under your circumstances. You can be a great light to others that life-long members such as I cannot, because I haven’t gone through what you’ve gone through.

I mean this with deep sincerity. You and I may have different circumstances, but we are both seeking answers and seeking peace. I hope we can find it in the church (sooner rather than later, huh?).

[Heber13]

Hi Bouvet. I’m new to this forum thing, but find it comforting to hear others struggle through trials and can come through it and find peace in the end. Despite everyone’s different situations, there are common themes and common tests we all seem to be faced with.

Can I ask if you felt a sudden loss of love for the church or was it a gradual loss until one day you wondered where it went?

Obviously, you don’t have to share if you don’t want to. Just wonder if my situation is similar or not.

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