[redhatjunker]

Hey Girl,

You say you are tired all the time and church is just an additional stress…. I understand that! As far the exhaustion, some of that could be linked to where you are in your life as far as biochemical changes. Allow yourself to participate in what seems right to you and let the rest go until you are ready. Hang on to the basics, but even more hang on to the hand of the Savior. I am at a place that I want to just feel a connection to the spiritual, whether at church, home or in nature (my favorite place for spiritual feelings). I too have struggled with the temple rituals and am not sure what the answer is for you there. I don’t have a current recommend because I don’t want one.

You might read Carol Lynn Pearson’s biography as far the ex goes. Her husband left her and four kids for a man, got AIDS and she nursed him til he died.

I guess knowing that life is SUPPOSED to be difficult and full of adversity doesn’t mean we are gonna like it, but for me it does make it easier when the s### hits the fan….. sometimes I can step to the side when I see it coming and sometimes it hits me full on.

One day at a time…..

redhatjunker

[redhatjunker]

Thank you Tom for your response….. As you can guess, this can be a very contentious subject if I express any differing opinion and I have done as you suggested, but I appreciate the validation that it’s ok…

In my heart, I believe this will lead to a polygamist relationship although at this space in time, he reassures me that he would not seek another wife without my blessing….. riiiiiight… not my experience of the past 37 years of togetherness…

Part of me wants to say go for it cause it would create more independence for me and the other half says, I don’t think so, just NOT sharing…..nor would I want to explain it to my grown children and grandchildren….

hanging by a thread

redhatjunker

[redhatjunker]

Hi,

I was raised in the south in a hard core, Bible believing church… no piano, organ, dancing and certainly no women teaching the men!!! I think the problem with the various understandings of the scriptures, that for every verse you find supporting one opinion, you can find others with a different spin. Although, I think it was taught, I never accepted the Nicean Creed idea that God and Jesus and the Holy Spirit were all one and it’s just a mystery. My personal belief came from the baptism of Jesus and his Cruxifiction and if Jesus is going to sit on the right hand of God, would that be his own right hand? That’s my story and I’m stickin to it 😆

I hope you will read my post and hopefully share any insight you might have for my situation… Ain’t life fun and won’t we all be going what the heck when we die????

redhatjunker

[redhatjunker]

One of the problems with his going this, or any direction, is that I get the argument: “if I would just be a submissive, obediant wife and follow my ‘righteous priesthood bearer’ then everything will be ok”…..I KNOW this is unrighteous dominion and have said so, naturally I don’t get any agreement from him. Although concerned about the perils this puts on our marriage, I guess my reason for joining the group is to help me with the earthquakes in my mainstream testimony and to not the throw out the baby with the bath water thing. I have been going to both meetings on Sundays, which makes about 6 hours, (so I am getting enough religion), took one of their “discussions” and have tried to be open minded. I bought the book, In Sacred Loneliness, we already had the Quinn books although I haven’t opened them and he has a shelf full of fundamentalist books. Before this, I was quite content just being a plain, simple Mormon. After our years of inactivity, I became a born-again, holy-roller-type Mormon after accepting the fullness of the atonement for me personally. Somewhere in my soul, that still resonates, but it has been fogged in. I know life is supposed to be full of adversity, but d***, at my mid-50’s thought I would have more figured out by now…….

[redhatjunker]

I just posted a comment about my husband going the fundamentalist direction, but I’m just NOT feeling it. Please read my comment and help me out with any ideas you might have. I just picked up the book “In Sacred Loneliness” about the plural wives of Joseph Smith. I am not bothered by his marriage to single women, but I take issue with his marriages to women who were already married. Also the whole Adam-God doctrine has me quite perplexed to say the least. Rather than drawing me to the Fundamentalist beliefs, this is all causing me question whether the church is true at all or whether church is really necessary to worship.

thanks for your thoughts,

redhatjunker

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