Just to answer the small question about being in the YW. I think it is perfectly acceptable to continue in your calling regardless of your doubts and struggles. I am the one in my marriage that struggles with more the church but my wife has also had her doubts when she read some of the things I was reading. She is also the YW president. Although I don’t believe the Church has the ability to offer anyone exaltation, I fully support her in calling and she is fine with her calling despite her doubts. I think that if you perform your calling in a way that you would be proud of even if the church wasn’t true, you really can’t go wrong. Teaching good values, increasing self-worth and being a friend to struggling adolescents is something you can be proud of regardless of the ultimate veracity of the Church. How you choose to handle sharing your testimony is a tough issue, as is the expectation that you may have to share things you simply don’t believe but I think you can do a lot of good even with doubts.
