Welcome, welcome!
I really enjoyed reading your intro post. I like your attitude about not wanting others in the church to start questioning your faith as you, yourself are already “losing” your faith. I am still affected and hurt by the emotional and social “damages” that had been afflicted upon me but since you have been nine months into this, reading your post definitely gives me hope that I can at least in the near future become at peace with this and have the parallel attitude about this as you do 
Looking forward to hear more from you on the board!