Thank you all for your input. I still haven’t sent the letter and due to your cautioning responses I’ve completely reconsidered doing so. I feel like explaining in person would make me feel so much shame and fear on the spot that I would lose my words and not be able to speak. If I’m feeling that much fear, it’s probably not a great idea to send the letter anyway. It did feel good to write it out though. Maybe I will take that suggestion to write it 100 times and never send it. 