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Thanks for the review. My 12 year old has really been wanting to see this and you’ve confirmed our decision to take him.

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Beefster wrote:

do wonder sometimes if this is something I want to do because it’s easy or because I believe it will make me happier. But when I really take the time to think about it, it’s clear that it is not the easier path. The easy path would be to stay in the church, but I could never feel right doing it unless I can manage to reconstruct my faith in a way that works for me.

I think you hit the nail on the head. I don’t think any of us are looking for an easy path. I think we are looking for an authentic, fulfilling life and unfortunately the church no longer provides that. For me the easy thing would have been to never tell my wife and play along, and yet I would have been miserable. Instead I enjoy internal peace (no cognitive dissonance) and authenticity but the price for that is patience and support for a TBM-ish wife who is saddened and dealing with a calling that I have mixed feelings on.

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Thought provoking to see this. I had what I considered a good day at church today because I caught up with an old friend, enjoyed some of the sacrament meeting talks (on service), teacher training was a decent discussion, and in YM’s I helped the youth set some goals. In my TBM day’s it would have been nearly the perfect Sunday. Yet when I came home, I was surprised to feel completely wound up inside and needed to go for a walk, alone, to decompress. I wonder if it’s similar- I have to guard my comments so that I can participate and try to be authentic, and yet the entire time I’m guarding all my words- maybe I just find it mentally exhausting… Not sure the cause yet.

I’m anchored by family so I’m not giving up yet, though…

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